Tuesday, February 04, 2014

No Longer a Teenager

So today I turned 20. I thanked God for all the things He had done for me, for His blessings. I thanked my family and friends who keep supporting me. Especially last year when I was sick, very sick, and down. Thank you for being there when I need you. I hope that my wish and your wishes on me will come into reality.
Somehow I feel like an idiot. You know what, deep in my heart, I wish he sends me a greeting for my birthday (like that text that he sent to me last year when I was sick). Ironically, it's impossible. Too dangerous to write down the reason. What if someone visiting my blog and he/she knows all means behind every sentence. Losing pride is the risk.
So, my junior friend invited me to join a reunion tomorrow. I wanted to go even I have an appointment after lunch. I can handle that but one thing. It's quite embarrassing. When I was in junior high, I only had four closest friends. Well honestly, I was popular and I had many friends when I was jhs but only us (me and my girlfriends) who went to different high school. Our ex-school has kindergarten, elementary school, jhs, and shs. So me and my four other friends went to different high school and the rest stayed in the same school. So been away for three years, it loosen our (me and the rest who stayed) knot and the opposite. I have this feeling, feeling like I'm gonna look like a complete stranger to them. I really want to go but I have no company.
Anyway, I'm in misery. I haven't got any exam results yet! and the worst part is I don't know if I'm ready to see the result. Okay...so, I'm tired of writing.

Happy birthday to Me :)