Dear Lord,

Thank You for giving me the strength
and the conviction
to complete the task you entrusted to me.
Thank You for guiding me straight
and true
through the many obstacles in my path
and for keeping me resolute
when all around seemed lost.
Thank You for Your protection
and Your many signs along the way.
Thank You for any good that I may have done,
I'm so sorry about the bad.
Thank You for the friend I made.
Please watch over her as you watched over me.
Thank You for finally allowing me to rest.
I'm so very tired,
but I go now to my rest at peace.
Knowing that I have done right
with my time on this earth.
I fought the good fight,
I finished the race,
I kept the faith.

Numb

Time's ticking, heart's beating, head's spinning. If someone slices my throat with a knife, it wouldn't be more painful than the fate which has to be accepted.

After I, unintentionally, looked that stupid book, I went pale. I wanted to run and cry and whatsoever. Days after days, I was still a sad girl. Those terrible weeks made even a smile couldn't plastered on my face. I was miserable, furious, and sad. My thoughts flew to all my friends which successfully makes me more sad. "Will I be alone?" "Will I look like an idiot if I stay too long?" Even everyone comforted me, I knew one thing only for sure. They would leave me, I was left behind.

So through this post, I want to apologize to everyone who got hurt by me. I'm really sorry if I shut you out, especially my friends and my brother. Sorry for gave you a cold response, sorry for this bad attitude of mine. This week has been so hard and I was so sensitive. I cried in my prayers, every time. I was so jealous of you, guys. Jealousy seriously and unhesitatingly took a big space in my heart.

... but the numbness still had her.

Heartache

"If you love someone, set him free, the saying goes. Yeah, right! Who wants to do that?! When you love someone, the last thing you want to do is set him or her free. You want to cling to him like the last life jacket on the Titanic. Sometimes this works out, if the person doesn't mind, or even adores, your clinging. Other times, if the person doesn't feel the same as you, you just end up causing yourself a huge amount of heartache."

Written

It's funny, how words can affect your life.
Each one by itself means nothing,
but put when they are placed together
it just changes everything.

Ego

Don't leave for

I already missing you