Too Much

Alright, I should apologize to tsunao cos my project haven't completed yet! Sorry, it's all my mistakes. I shouldn't take that project if my computer is off. Although I have sooo much free times to do it. it's true when you had so much money, you don't know how to spare it then when you had so much times, you don't know how to use it effectively. For me who have to waiting until the beginning of september is really frustrating. I had to do all duty in the house. Like helping my mom to cook or being able to drive or repair something broken or else. But I ain't do nothing. I can't drive, honestly no one taught me. My brother just like a shit, he prefer go out with his friends and leave me here.

Argh.. this gonna be a long long month. When I have to waiting until the next chapter of my fav manga, when I have no activity, when I have no friends to be asked to hang out. I just doing the same thing all the times.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

The Raven

Once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, weak and weary,
O'er many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While i nodded, nearly napping, presently there came a tapping,
As of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door,
"Tis some visitor" I muttered, "rapping at my chamber door,
Only this and nothing more."


Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And the fire's last dying ember had wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow--vainly I had sought to borrow--
From my books surcease of sorrow, sorrow for the lost Lenore.
For the rare and radiant whom the angels name Lenore,
Nameless here for evermore.


....


Presently my soul grew stronger, hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or Madame, truly your forgiveness I implore"
"But the fact is I was napping and so gently you came rapping"
"and so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,"
"that I scarce was sure I heard you"---here I opened wide the door.
Darkness there and nothing more.


Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
But the silence was unbroken and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word "Lenore,"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word "Lenore,"
Merely this and nothing more.


....


Open here I flung the shutter, when with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately Raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he, not a minute stopped or staid he,
But with mien of lord or lady, perched upon my chamber door,
Perched on a bust of Pallas (Athena) just above my chamber door,
Perched and sat, and nothing more.


...


"On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before,"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."


..............


"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! Prophet still, if bird or devil!"
"Whether Tempter sent or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,"
"Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted,"
"In this home by Horror haunted, tell me truly I implore,"
"Is there, is there, Balm in Gilead, tell me--tell me, I implore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore!"


........


"Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!" I shrieked, upstarting,
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!"
"Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!"
"Leave my loneliness unbroken!--Quit the bust above my door!"
"Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."


And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting,
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted--nevermore!

Edgar Alan Poe (1809-1849) American.
Source: Black Butler vol III

Galau

Hai, alasan aku ngepost hari ini tak lain tak bukan karena kegalauanku. Lihat ini :

29 Mei - Pengumuman SNMPTN 2011

19 Juli - Pengumuman Simak UI 2011

Nah, lihat? Kalau kalian jadi aku apa yang akan kalian pilih? Susah kan? makanya mending gak usah lulus nanggung-nanggung. (-__-")

Angel's Farewell Party

So... kemarin aku, omi, anz, angel, dan lia pergi manggang di rumah dian. Seperti biasa, pagi-pagi lia, omi, angel udah stand by di pringgan buat beli ikan. Dan seperti biasa juga aku masih tidur. Bahkan jam 8 pagi si dian nelpon nanya "ges, letak astronomi itu apa?" aku heran kenapa pagi-pagi begini malah nanya letak astronomi. Kesadaranku yang masih belum sempurna membuatku berkata "hah? apa? aku gak tahu yan, nanti ajalah kau telepon." KLUK. hp jatuh dan aku tertidur. Beberapa menit kemudian aku sadar hp-ku jatuh dan aku langsung sms din, letak astronomi adalah bla bla bla dan berakhirlah cerita di pagi hari.

Begitu bangun aku langsung cepat-cepat mandi, makan, nyuci piring, nyuci baju, nimba air, menggosok lah ? Nggak deng, sebetulnya sekitar jam 6 pagi mamaku pergi ke simalem, biasa arisan. Jadi semua urusan rumah jatuh ke tanganku. Daaaan, hal inilah yang membuat aku pontang panting ke rumah anz (takut ditinggalin lagi). Sebetulnya aku yakin teman-temanku pasti menyebutku dengan sebutan lain yang nggak kuketahui. Soalnya aku yang paling sering datang terlambat dan yang paling sering ditinggal pergi. So sad... Sesampainya di pringgan, tiga mahlu yang gak jelas ini enak-enakan makan mie pangsit. Yah.. aku tah mereka kelamaan nunggu sih. Finally kita pesan blue bird then... heading to dian's house :)

Sesampainya di sana, kami disambut oleh 2 kurcaci manis dan imut bernama Mickey A dan Mickey B. Honestly, their names are Mickey but I putted A and B to make a difference. They're puppies. I love it ♡. Ada juga anjingnya udah tua, his name was Rembow or Rainbow, i don't know exactly. Then, kita langsung bersihin ikannya. Sebagai orang yang tidak mengerti seluk beluk mengeluarkan isi perut ikan, aku kebagian tugas menjaga Mickeys :D Soalnya mereka berdua pingin jilat-jilat ikannya ieuhh.

Setelah ikannya udah bersih, kami langsung bakar arang dan ikannya di-seasoning. Mulailah aksi meniup-niup arang sampai muka hitam. Singkatnya ada team A dan team B. Team A: Anz, Dian, Lia, bertugas menyiapkan sambal, sayur-sayuran, nasi dan perlengkapan makan. Team B: Angel, Omi, me, bertugas membakar ikan, meniup-niup arang, memberi bumbu, membakar sampah, menyapu halaman, membersihkan lantai. aku nggak tahu untuk apa aku nyebut yang 3 terakhir tapi gak ada gunanya ==' 

(me: red, angel: gray t-shirt, omi: blue, dian: white t-shirt, lia: yellow, anz: gray black)

Setelah selesai acara masak memasak dan makan memakan, kita beresin piringnya. Yah terus nonton dvd "The Hole". Menurutku ceritanya kurang bagus dan sama sekali tidak seram. Unrecommended. Terus kita cerita-cerita playful kiss yang edisi special. Nah langsung edh orang sil ia dan dian beli hha. Sebelum pulang, kami main-main lagi sama the Mickeys and Rainbow lol. It was really interesting when Dian told us a funny story about Delwi. Karena lagi nunggu taxi, kita nelpon Delwi selama 10 menit (cuman 1000). Kami bilang kami di Cemara Asri berenang hha, padahal kami di rumah Dian, memang dekat sih sebenarnya ;p

Nah, begitu pulang dari rumah Dian kami temanin Angel shopping soalnya dia mau ke Bandung ikut ujian masuk UNPAR. Honestly, aku ingin di stay di medan :( tapi gak selamanya kita harus bersama, 'kan? Okay, anggap aja acara manggang-manggang kita untuk merayakan kepergian angel ke bandung. bye sweetheart :')

PS: begitu sampai rumah, anz dan kedua adik cowonya dikurung diluar. hahaha so funny! and ya know, I just bought new case for my p1. I hv to wait 2-3 days ;)

Babblling Over

 Fyi, I've got my PJP! Thanks so much bukabuku ;* Kalau kalian mau belanja buku online, aku saranin ke sini aja. Udah harganya murah-murah, cepat sampai lagi (promosi).

Pas buka facebook, aku jadi kepingin posting. Jadi semua berawal dari facebook seperti yang kubilang tadi dan kayaknya  memang udah kubilang -,- Kemarin, aku added teman SD ku yang masih hidup. Nah, baru di-approve kemarin. Jadilah reunian di wall ane. Terus kita share links facebook teman-teman yang lain. Aku buka deh facebook cinta pertamaku (oh no!). Ternyata dan ternyata... dia udah punya cewek. Hatiku hancur sehancur-hancurnya. Padahal aku jauh lebih manis dari cewek itu :'( Memang bener cinta pertama itu gak akan pernah berhasil.

Nah, karena cinta pertamaku ini, aku teringat prediksi poconggg untuk aquarius yang dia tulis di bukunya. Ternyata si poconggg benar "kalian akan jatuh cinta pada orang yang telah mempunyai kekasih" tapi kan ditulis "Asmara: menunggu" apa aku harus menunggu mereka break up? Jahat banget aku, kayak nggak ada cowok lain aja. And that's the point, aku memang cuek banget kalau dikenalin teman-temanku sama teman cowok mereka. Padahal aku orangnya kikuk jadi terkesan cuek.

Overall, cinta pertamaku memang udah nggak menarik perhatianku sama sekali. Mau dia punya pacar kek, mau  dia punya tunangan kek, mau bapaknya jual rumah kek, aku mah nggak peduli. Mau profil picturenya sama pacar kek, mau in relationshipnya sama tunangan kek, mau wall to wall-nya sama neneknya kek, aku juga gak peduli. Pokoknya apapun tentang dia gua gak peduli (lah kok pake gua).

Udah ah, bisa darah tinggi aku lama-lama bahas masalah percintaan. Next gua mau cerita tentang remaja yang labil (lah pake gua lagi --') Semua berawal dari facebook juga seperti yang aku ketik tadi bukan aku bilang dan memang bukan kubilang tapi kuketik. Aku lihat status teman dekat ku. Yah intinya dia mau jebol di UI tahun depan. Yang dipermasalahkan (sebetulnya gak masalah amat sih mau kemana dia tahun depan) di sini adalah kelabilannya. Pertama temanku ini minat banget ke HI UNPAD dan STAN. Yah, sebagai tipe cewek setia yang hanya memiliki satu tujuan yaitu Akun UI, no prob with me. Setelah dia tahu STAN cuman d1 dan hukum UNPAD katanya gak diakui (katanya), dia mah beralih ke UI. Padahal kemarin dia bilang gak minat inilah itulah. Sebagai tipe cewek setia, aku nggak terpengaruh dengan stan ataupun ptn di pulau jawa lainnya. Apalagi ada orang aneh yang bilang kalau anak rantau lebih terjamin suksesnya. Menurutku yang bilang ini mukanya benar-benar mirip sama muka semut.

Coba pikirkan deh, kalau kalian merantau hanya habisin uang kost, jajan, tahu-tahu jurusan yang kalian pilih pun nggak begitu bagus. Habis-habisin tenaga kan kalau tinggak di pulau orang hanya untuk melarat. Mending kuliah di PTN meski gak merantau jurusan yang dipilih oke, gak danga-danga. Jujur aja aku kesal kali sama orang yang bilang kayak gitu. Saya bangga kuliah di PTN di daerah saya. USU lumayan dan masih dianggap kok. Apa gunanya kalian pergi ku pulau jawa mau kuliah tapi jurusan kalian pun abal-abal. Anak ayam yang baru dilahirkan juga bisa masuk situ -,-

Aku nggak menganggap ptn di sinilah lebih bagus atau apa tapi tolong kalau ngomong dipikirkan dulu. Jangan merasa hebat dulu lulus di PTN pulau Jawa. Kalau masalah kuliah di Pulau Jawa mah, ambil aja jurusan yang pass in grade-nya paling rendah, jebol dah gua (gua lagi gua lagi). Back to the topic, aku benar-benar gak tahu apa hubungannya status temanku dengan anak ayam. Ya sudahlah memang gak ada hubungannya.

Males ah bahas urusan kayak gini. Untungnya aku beli komik banyak semalam, beli baju, buku PJP juga udah sampai, bakal betah deh di rumah seharian. Sekian, see you loves ♡ xoxoxoxo !

Explode

well, hai. it's been a long time since my last post. i've been busy with school, univ, and bla bla. know i'm unemployed. i have no job to do i have no task to do, but i have a goal. you want to know? well the goal is pass SNMPTN 2011 and go to university. fyi i failed in 'snmptn undangan' and it really made me down. you know, the one who made me really down is why is this shitty certificate from TPBI USU feels like a view?? I mean it was useless. I've spent my money to get that f*cking certificate by exam but the result.. it was really annoyed me. oke, forget about snmptn undangan. now my mind is full with doubt. i just have to wait the result of snmptn tertulis. bless me God, please... give me the best.

I want to type something but it's too lazy to think the name of person whom i want to type. so forget about it. just call him assh*le. recently, my friends asked me why I'm not make my new twitter account? the answer is quite simple. it's because i still hope someday the hacker will give my account twitter back although it was the most stupid hope. yah, i'm in love with my old twitter account coz i made it one day after Hayley Williams made hers. wow, it's really....has no connections, isn't it?

love, i found something interesting now. it's SNSD! i love all of them. but the most is Yoona and Sooyoung. they're really pretty and talented. i wish i'm more taller.

don't know why but i miss my classmates. lucky, adit, dona, and stefano visited my house last saturday. we watched DVD, played the game and ate together. they surprised me when i just woke up, but God knows i'm thankful for that *bliss*

and now, i'm out for a while. till i get the final and certain result which call me as a college student. bye fellas ♥

Life isn't about waiting for the storms to pass... it's about learning to dance in the rain...